Happy Halloween!

Ethan is going to be a turtle for Halloween. It is a really cute costume that we borrowed from J. & Louise. The problem with him being a turtle is that Oz and I can't dress up to match him. What goes with a turtle? A hare? So, I guess we will dress as nothing. But next year I am going all out!
Ethan has been a fussy napper the past 2 days. I can't get him to sleep well because of the swaddling thing. He won't go to sleep without being swaddled during the day, but as soon as I swaddle him he breaks out of it. I swear I have spent an hour each time he needs to nap just trying to get him to sleep. He will look up at me with his sweet face and start cooing at me as I am rubbing his bald head and then as soon as I leave the room he starts screaming. He is playing mama already!
Last night I went in to feed him in the middle of the night and then I just climbed into the twin bed into his room. He kept rolling over and crying and I got up to check on him and he was laying in a huge pile of spit up. So, I just grabbed him up and put him in the bed with me and snuggled up with him. I haven't done that in so long. As much as I love laying with him, it was hard to sleep at first because he just kept moving around. I think he was ready to get up for the day. I don't know how people co-sleep full time, because when I woke up this morning with him I just kept thinking the "what-ifs?". What if I rolled over on him last night? What if my pillow moved onto his face? (etc.) I would drive myself crazy thinking all of this.
Ethan turned 4 months-old on Monday and his doctors appt. is Friday. I am interested in seeing how much he weighs and what the pediatrician will say about feeding him solids. I have already been giving him rice cereal for the past couple of weeks (not everyday) and I can't tell what Ethan thinks about it. Sometimes he cries and I can't tell if it is because he hates it or if it is because the spoon is out of his mouth and he wants more. I do not want to give him the vaccinations, but everybody thinks I am just a nervous nelly for thinking that. I just keep hearing too many scary things about vaccines and autism. When I mentioned it to the pediatrician before, he looked at me like I was an idiot. Maybe I am. I know I am a worrier...